Honeybear Happy 25th........

                                                           I miss your hazel eyes

How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

I see your hazel eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not
Around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you

Honeybear

I miss everything about you
Without you

  Happy 25th wedding Anniversary!!!!

One year today

Since Heaven has become your home

I sometimes feel I'm all alone;

and though we now are far apart

you hold a big piece of my heart.

I never knew how much I'd grieve

when it was time for you to leave,

or just how much my heart would ache

from that one fragment you would take.

God lets this tender hole remain

reminding me we'll meet again,

and one day all the pain will cease

when He restores this missing piece.

He'll turn to joy my every tear

with thoughts of you I hold so dear,

and they'll become my special way 

to treasure our reunion day.

I love you 

• What better time than now to share a few more treasures that Mark left behind. This is nurses week! These two drawings I have on my desk at work =)

• Happy Nurse's week for ALL the nurses out there!!! 

God's goodness comes thru from a touch of a nurse
Bless them all MRH 5/7/07

Judy
Thank you Mark for these treasures, but most of all thank you for loving me the way you did!
I love you & always will..............<3

Today, I took a nose dive. I had Mark's/my motorcycle moved from where it was to a safer place. I thought it would be nice to see the bike again, but instead of feeling happy, my heart felt like it was broken all over again. All the feelings that I have been suppressing these last 10-months came flooding in.......as I watch the bike drive away in the trailer behind the truck, I started crying and couldn't stop. It was like watching Mark going away again......it hurt so so bad. 


I am not sure what I will do with the bike. It would be ashamed to have it just sit & not be enjoyed by someone. Especially in the ways Mark and I enjoyed the bike. On the other hand, keeping it almost makes me feel that Mark is alive in some way.........I still have most of his clothes, all of his special treasures, but of all the memories I have.......this bike is the one thing that makes me feel Mark's presence the most. 


My heart is still on the mend. I get up every day with a broken heart. I have worked through many broken bones (legs,arms,pelvis, etc), but some days it seem almost impossible if not harder to work with a broken heart. I put on my happy face, but deep down inside I have this pain, that nothing and no one, but me can do anything about.........It's been 10-months, but for me it still feels like yesterday when I lost the LOVE OF MY LIFE. 


My eyes ache to see Mark one more time. My ears yearn to hear his voice, his laugh and to hear him say, "I LOVE YOU KIDD"......just ONE more time......I would do anything to feel the touch of his strong hands. I felt so safe with him. He was always watching out for me and protecting me. Now it's just me......Me against the world.  


I spend a lot of time in the yard, because that is another thing that makes me feel close to Mark. I remember seeing him every morning out in the yard, raking, watering, and feeding the birds. Now I'm the one there making sure the yard stays nice and the the birds stay happy. I find myself talking to Mark out loud......


I miss you Honeybear..........OH SO VERY, VERY VERY........... much!  I can't wait until the day we can be together again!


We are only a heart beat away!

                                                  

Happy Birthday Honeybear

                                                                                
Today is Mark's Birthday........I have decided not to be sad, but happy. The reason is because I know that's what Mark would want.......for me to be happy. The main reason I am happy is because this is the date April 9th.....56 years ago that the good Lord finished knitting him in his mother's womb & He introduced Mark Roy Hamlin to the world.

Mark, I am one of the luckiest people in the world because I got to know, and love you ...... I still do, very much & ALWAYS will. You may be gone from my sight, but you are NOT forgotten! I think of you EVERY day and write you love letters in my mind.                                                                            

Today I made you cupcakes, something you would always do......I also got together with friends at our favorite restaurant to have dinner. The restaurant that we would go to every year for our birthdays and in-between. You enjoyed their hamburgers, & would say they "had the best burgers in town."=) Me I always enjoyed their chicken enchiladas.

Remember the time we decided to try something different? You the tacos and I the tamales. We were so disappointed and from that point on we stuck with our usual. 
                                                                       

                                                                       

Honeybear,
While you were alive,  I wrote you love letters in my heart, but for some reason, when I was with you, I wasn't able to find the words to tell you what was in my heart. Every day I discovered something about you, but when we were together, I would get so caught up in the moment that I would forget everything I wanted to tell you..........I hope that you knew that even though at times words failed me...... in my heart I wrote you love letters every day! and still do today!

We'd been through a lot together. You've saw me at my best, my worst, and the first thing in the morning (yikes, pretty scary, huh?) We laughed and kissed and argued and loved and held hands. When I look back on this little story of "us," I realize I was happier than I'd ever been. And it was all because of you.......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WITH LOVE,
Kidd =)

Mercyme - The Hurt & The Healer

The Healer and Me

Why?
The question that is never far away
The healing doesn’t come from the explained
Jesus please don’t let this go in vain
You’re all I have
All that remains

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into Your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

Breathe
Sometimes I feel it’s all that I can do
Pain so deep that I can hardly move
Just keep my eyes completely fixed on You
Lord take hold and pull me through

So here I am
What’s left of me
Where glory meets my suffering

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When the hurt and the healer collide

It’s the moment when humanity
Is overcome by majesty
When grace is ushered in for good
And all the scars are understood
When mercy takes its rightful place
And all these questions fade away
When out of the weakness we must bow
And hear You say “It’s over now”

I’m alive
Even though a part of me has died
You take my heart and breathe it back to life
I’ve fallen into your arms open wide
When The hurt and the healer collide

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here
When the hurt and the healer collide [x2]

Jesus come and break my fear
Awake my heart and take my tears
Find Your glory even here